Wednesday, November 8, 2023

Sixty Some

I published this book in 2009. It's available for purchase on Amazon & for free reading at the Internet Archive.

You can also read it right here.




A Canto for Mae West

 

                        — after Jon Anderson

 

 

I knew there was a fox in the female heart

sheerly shameless in its heat

                                            as time would reveal.

 

At first there was an all-pervading smell of

       fish.

Blowflies — plump, glittery hovering specks of green —

grazed any woman with that smell.

                                                   I edged closer

since birth having wondered at my aroma and

wanting to graduate to this.

 

                                                          The man —

patriarch husband or king — who had been our containment

was cleanly clocked by the luggage of Mae West

         whose chutzpah engendered us — we measure time

                                         in moonflowers —

who — nun or hussy — planted her body bosom and thigh

rampant, because it would flagrantly be soundtracked and screened.

 

I knew that the draped could be duped, and this

unveiling of self would unlock female shackles.

                                                                          I knew

that Mae West’s bravado turned men craven.

 

If there were a fox in the heart and fetters it breezed by

I would promote shameless

                                           until I was pure through.

About me would be a smell of fish

and a future where females fly free.

 

 

 


A Child Wonders Why My Auntie Fell in the Sea at Hilo

 

 

Because we are haole, greeters at St. Joseph’s

lei us and embrace us. Aunt Mary

misses the font but grounds a knee, queues

for communion, can’t hear but mouths the song.

 

Because an acolyte glides toward the altar

bearing a wooden cross, my face betrays me.

Aunt Mary doesn’t see. The eye cannot

say to the hand I have no need of you.

I sit as they rise to chant, humble to pray.

I wait for benediction, the wash of sea.

 

Because Mary wants her trousers rolled

she wades in the shallows, stumbles, cries out

and falls in front of a child, then fails to rise.

I pull her up. She gasps and says I pushed her.

 

 

 


All of You Children and This a Mad House

 

 

The girl who won’t stop wailing

squeezes past the man

 

who’s hauling up the stairs

the boy who won’t walk.

 

His head bounces — thwock

of a melon but louder —

 

his face purples, his shirt rucks

to the neck, his spine bruises

 

balusters his hands flail for.

The girl howls til it’s noise

 

the mother puts a stop to.

 

 

 


Along the Hull

 

 

Under silken lids

his eyes are swollen.

He’s kissing the women

but he misses her.

She is tapping

along the hull

now that he is leaving.

 

She starts to hear music

above her inner music

imitates a line.

She can hear her song

while watching others

failing to fathom.

 

A ferry shoulders the dock

until shouting secures it.

The hill’s skirts

flare into moorings.

 

 

 


Argyll Tour

          Glasgow

 

                        — after Eugenio Montale

 

 

Treed infants

mushroom-studded springs

a fenced colt named “Biter”

 

diesel-smoked canals

seagull froth, tallow broth

trays of drying dates, barge chatter

rust-weakened chains

 

— but of you, nothing —

 

tuna bobbing in waves

sleep

long-playing mice

ribald laughter

 

— until you appear —

 

dearest, I’m your slave

hobble me.

 

 

 


Aubade

 

 

I wake to a dream bird

melodious mocker

and guilt. I’m late.

 

Kingfishers

bound by orange ribbons

chitter and chee from posts

shimmer like boasts

above the glare

dive to snare

fillets of shine.

 

One of me dresses

the other forgets

to rise.

 

In this vernal season

. . . it were an injury

and sullennesse against nature

not to go out

 

The tide is high

a rowboat

(borrowed and splintered)

slides from a spongy bank

is buoyed by drift

rocked by swell. It can welcome

my weight

unslip its oars . . .

 

 

 


Aunt Naked

 

 

My aunt enters the room naked, waving

a lit cigarette. “Who wants hot dogs

who wants hamburgers, and how many?”

My cousin flips her comic book page

but doesn’t look. I can’t stop

looking. I have never seen breasts

full like pockets, nipples crinkled and red.

Below her belly a black vee aims

between thighs as creased and rumpled

as sheets before bed-making. My aunt

takes our orders, breathes a ring of smoke

and tilts away in jewel-toed slippers

her puckery bottom jiggling like pudding.

She’s off to ask our brothers.

 

 

 


A Whale’s Pace

 

                        — after Wislawa Szymborska

 

 

Because the whales are slow to reach the prison yard

pitiful syllables echo off guard towers.

 

Because the whales are slow to circumnavigate

nightingales start jamming.

 

Because the whales are slow tonight

the market's closing, it’ll cost you nothing to witness the breach.

 

 

 


Becoming Donald Trump

 

 

Christmas brings the boy

a video game.

Destroying foe by foe

he gains the sanctum.

 

Inside the senior home

he finds TVs

and a view of Donald Trump

in black tie —

 

the man owns every

video game

and gorgeous women —

might he loan one?

 

Gramps pours coffee.

Granny’s breathing

airs a smell, a whisper

“Why am I here?”

 

The boy pays no mind

to failing kin.

He will be returned

to the foster home.

 

 

 


Bobbing Along

 

 

Sometimes when I feel

older than the hills

thinner than the rails

they tore out the year

after Grandma died

I cook up a stew

by throwing in everything

but the kitchen sink

including that red robin

the cat dragged in

fresh from the garden

a taste of spring.

While eating my fill

I sing my heart out.

 

 

 


Brother

 

 

I was the egghead

never-going-to-be-asked-for-a-date

at a public high school

where he was the frequently-suspended.

 

Weaving through crowds toward second period

I’d catch sight of him and flinch

as he powered along, briefcase swinging

his expression grim or bemused.

 

I knew he would swerve to intercept me

swing and slam that briefcase into my shins

my elbows, the backs of my knees, leave bruises

that made me hiss and clutch myself and glare at the freak —

 

my brother — trying to connect

with his only sense of tender.

 

 

 


Bubble and Pop

 

                        — after Jorie Graham

 

 

At dawn the old man’s up and at midnight, down-

            wind of the tarp

            flapping, a feather

flicking at winter’s lunge and bruising. Gallons of sap

            steam in the pot

            start to simmer —

sugary bubble and pop — the fire to tend, the sudden

            burps abandoning

            kettle for ground

melted gaps in dirty drifts, the rims congealing.

            Forest duff

            smarts his eyes

as an owl hoots by. Too old to keep a job that pays

            he wouldn’t suit one

            a house and a wife

harvest of a life — bubble and pop — his next stop

            a ring of Saturn’s

            rainbow dust

far from the tug of Vermont, its cold wind and hungry fire.

            Dip the ladle

            test the drops —

not thick, not ichor yet. An hour and mapling season will end

            like summer ends

            the late tomatoes

seeded and canned — summer flames to warm the long winter.

            He conjures heaven

            how close it is.

 

 

 


Circulatory

 

 

The ice storm spins

                                  a holly berry

               a chrysalis.

 

 

Digesting the jewel

                              a stellar jay

          sails the slew.

 

 

Swelling and growing

                                    gems recrystalize

            to understory.

 

 

Fuel for my axe.

 

 

 


Coffee Picking

 

 

Under this sky of gray cloud

Mary's not wearing sunscreen

only the "Big Dog" sweatshirt

muddy brown pants

rubber boots with green soles.

She and Mike are picking coffee

berries from beaded branches

and the dogs, tired from leaping

lie watching from wet grass.

What does a dog think

of people stripping bitter beans

from tall bushes?

Mary's not wearing a hat

under this sky shifting

from gray to blue, the light from soft

to golden. Around Mike’s neck

a dirty string suspends a bowl

half-full of berries.

Mary drops hers

straight into the bucket.

When she needs a rest

she'll tell Mike she's dizzy

but only because she forgot

and turned her head too quickly.

See? She’s fine now

to continue. Mike knows

how to listen. Don't we need

a simple reason for why we're not

the way we want to be —

why we're creased instead of smooth

why our back is bent

not straight, why we stumble

and don't remember?

Beyond the dogs, the farm

the sea, familiar, shimmers.

 

 

 


Dreams of Potatoes

 

 

In dreams, potatoes dig their way up to the soil's surface

open their eyes.

 

Rain finds them silt-steeped.

Faded flowers go by.

 

In potato dreams butter and salt do not figure.

Larger spuds guest star in skin flicks.

 

Nervy potatoes suckle clods

travel in pecks, hide their sprouting eyes.

 

The finest potato is eaten by the Twelve-wired Bird of Paradise

bulges like a jewel in her throat.

 

A child places the smaller potatoes into a carton that once held eggs.

Their green dismantles light.

 

White potato, sweet potato, three potato, four.

Root for darkness. Wake.

 

 

 


Full-Blown

 

 

Slope-shouldered eyes

pocked cloud

 

a mile-long

slant of lip

fissures

 

Aeolus —

your moon face.

 

 

 


Hawaii 911

 

 

You had gone

to town saying

There’s nothing we can do.

I feared dying

and when the hillside shook

I started to run.

 

Had we been forewarn’d . . .

by dire example . . .

by what befell?

 

Down the hundred steps

was icy water

where spiders in webs

belayed between

the knobbled stones

awaited prey.

 

I catwalked upstream

lay sore and sweating

in a rock’s hard hollow

(shroud for body

socket for skull)

imagined you not returning

 

practiced what

I would say.

 

 

 


If Blue

 

 

If blue were something to eat          blue would

                               taste new          then vanish        

 

             refresh              like water

   but not water             something keener         

 

              would coat               like lotion

         melt from lips                and tongue

 

               renew   in the throat

would shimmer    along the esophagus

 

        fill the belly for hours              ease through

 

would light each organ           flash clear

             every impurity           all wounds

 

                    traverse bowels                  on feet furred

         like unpeeling butterflies                  pollinating bees

 

      the remnants           would fog

the body's mirror           release

 

                             a glow                 pinwheel down then up         

              would be rinsed                 blue.

 

 

 


In the Greenhouse

 

                        — after Eugenio Montale

 

 

The lemon’s roots

are awash with moles.

A spatter of drops

bead the sickle’s steel.

 

Apple and quince blaze

cochineal. The pony

shies at the comb —

my dream erodes.

 

Dazed and buoyant

I’m soaked with you

exhaling your form

absorbing your face.

 

God’s scant measure

showers few —

putti with harps and

drums rumble and blaze

 

at me — at lemons — at you.

 

 

 


In the Park at Caserta

 

                        — after Eugenio Montale

 

 

Against a green stage on a glass pond

where the cruel swan preens and arches

 

bubbles break — one bubble, ten —

a fire from below — ten fires.

 

A sun staggers skyward

over Norfolk pines, their verdigris crowns

 

and crooked nubs unravel like jungle vines

stony arms that sculpt anyone —

 

strangers — unseat, unsex.

Knuckles bloodied, the Mothers probe the deep.

 

 

 


Investment

 

                        — after Lyn Hejinian

 

 

By turning away

            she’s not rejecting him.

It’s familiar, cumulative, but temporary

            yet in its summarily remote

            calculation fond.

The bed

            shudders.

Panic shimmers.

The preferred option is

            to wait

            and see.

She compounds disfavor by

            forecasting a next

            time.

She asks to be held

            even as she declines to

            capitulate.

It is that castle keep

            that interest, that exposure, those

            hours per week, that inequality

            that transience, that misalignment.

All things missing or withheld

            bring returns.

 

 

 


It Is Time to Explain Myself

 

                        — after Walt Whitman

 

 

let us stand up

udder of my heart

I am a free companion

cushion me soft

 

life is a suck and a sell

what is commonest and cheapest and nearest and easiest is me

no sweeter fat

walks with the tender and growing night

 

winged purposes

I will do nothing for a long time but listen

 

turn and live awhile with the animals

moth and the fisheggs

a hummer and a buzzer

fish-smack pack

 

agonies are one of my changes

they who piddle and patter

gibberish of the dry limbs

 

miracle enough to stagger

I am not contained between my hat and my boots

I have instant conductors all over me

stucco'd with quadrupeds

 

procreant urge

the crescent child that carries its full mother in its belly

 

stand by the curb prolific

he most honors my style who learns under it to destroy the teacher

 

whirling is elemental

 

 

 


I Visit My Father’s Ward

 

 

To him fall the damaged children

wished for or not

creatures revealed

to have brains too small or miswired

unable to speak or speaking too much

catatonic or akathisic

children kept for a time as infants

until the problem proves unwieldy

like a wild animal in a suburban house

too much drooling, too heavy to handle

bodies that don’t grow or don’t walk

just arch, like the boy my father calls Cricket

a tight-strung bow on his back in a lifelong crib

where he sings his song.

 

Every child

those bound by straps to chairs; those

gripping or gripped by walkers, wheelchairs

canvas, leather, steel

those squirming or limp on bedding

hung in swings

wild with longing every one

will wave, warble, bark, clap, rock and pound the floor

cry “Doctah” and “Me” and “Wa-wa-wa-wa”

until he caresses each one

speaks a name.

 

My father gentles Cricket with

long slow swaths of his hand

down the unsexed belly.

Song bubbles from the child’s lips.

I stand in the doorway

afraid of all these strangers.

 

 

 


Lightning

 

                        — after William Carlos Williams

 

 

(bloom and boom)

I ran up

the driveway

 

my body

ahead

of my feet

 

when the strike

filled the sky

with silver

 

 

 


Low Country Chat

 

                        — after Lori Anderson

 

 

Who said “Check out the hips on

    that tree”? Hip-hippy-trunkulating-

up-to-a-crotch where the flare out

    startles. Who said “That tree's lost

its fool head”? Knuckle-cracking fingers

    spring-leafing to green and yellow lace.

All hips and torso and arms but no face.

    “Lucky you live in the swamp, Tree. In a lawn

Tree, you'd be chain-sawed and wood-mauled.”

    What Tree says is “I'm counting on roots

wider than my upside is tall.” Whoever said

    “ ‘Money is the root of all evil’ ” knows zip

about roots,” says Virgil locally known as Mud

    who feels them weave their webs through spartina.

 

 

 


Mandoo Soup at Onekahakaha Park

 

 

I’ve tasted the kimchi, the pork

pinched inside a dumpling

slurped the cloudy broth

 

I’ve chopsticked ribbons

of curdled egg, chewed slivers

of bamboo and zucchini

 

I’m swallowing seaweed

when a trade wind wheels

the soup container’s plastic lid

 

downslope toward the beach

— a top’s fandango —

but I’m lava-benched, beguiled

 

by plover squealings, mynah sass

turquoise breakers, humpback froth

not ready to chase my trash.

 

 

 


Mockingbird

 

                        — after Emily Dickinson

 

 

A Bird stood on my sill today —

One I have seen before —

And sang its Anthem — gay and bold —

I could not charge my ear

 

To voice the key — nor tune my throat

To play its Melody —

Nor cavalierly, tilt my tail —

Mimic its Equipoise —

 

But later — in the Tub — afloat —

I lather bubbled sheen

That reconditions me — now Bird —

Here comes — the joyful Noise

 

 

 


Morning After

 

 

The pinwheel

sling of Kali's arms

lures the child to the lawn.

 

Water needles

the costume she wears

to scare herself.

 

She dams the flow

to squat over punched steel.

Trickles grow

 

to hammers.

Not a mark reveals

she's been stung

 

until ears ringing

limbs starting to freeze

she ends it.

 

 

 


Muir's Sailing

 

 

Seeking a route to California

Muir sailed from Havana to New York

on a tar-and-oakum fruiter.

 

The hold was loaded with oranges, the deck

filled up level with the rails.

They walked on boards over gold.

 

The captain, five crew and the passenger

dined as one on salt mackerel and plum duff

and oranges.

 

Near the south coast of Carolina

head winds drenched the ship: of course

our load of oranges suffered.

 

The captain’s Newfoundland

jumped from a dozing sleep to capture flying fish

fluttering in oranges.

 

In calm sea and calm sky a dolphin

pursued the flock, dashed into the midst

and feasted on fallout.

 

Holding a rope on the bowsprit

Muir almost forgot

that walking on seas was forbidden.

 

He marveled at breaking waves of phosphorescent light.

O, to walk by night

with every star pictured in its bosom.

 

 

 


My Next Otter

 

 

My mother sat, her one eye blind

watching the river rushing for the dam

            her monster —

 

its balustrades of winter ice. She tallied

red mergansers, said her otter drifted

            belly up

 

gobbling a fish, edging nearer the brink

then preened its paws and swam upriver.

            This December

 

my otter’s head appears in the marsh

trolling for prey. Times I sat on the sill

            near her hoping

 

to see the sable curl, the rounded snout

the duck’s rout. But my next otter’s head

            wasn’t sleek —

 

no — matted, jaws around a silver fish

heaving, alive. It dove at my approach

            my kind.

 

 

 


Night Swim at Folly

 

 

On the bridge to Folly Beach —

midspan — a wooden cross

a limp flag, fresh blooms

a bottle in a brown bag.

That’s one reason he passed —

drinking and driving too fast —

but also the fight, their last

because he was to die soon.

 

A burring sound of tires

on grates before the car

veered into the concrete rail

exploded through.

Moored in pluff mud boil

a man underwater

in pitch dark, where

his fate was to die soon.

 

His friends steal flowers

from local parks — reds

and forget-me-not blues.

They wish he’d kissed his lover

and nixed that final beer.

They imagine he said

I’m screwed, but then

tried not to die so soon

 

by flailing at the door —

or had he floored it and steered

for the taste of black water?

Made it his choice to die, and soon.

 

 

 


No Souls

 

                        — after William Butler Yeats

 

 

The vulture lands, his long wings fan the air

above a flattened mate.

Her head — leprous, bare

and red — twists to touch him, bill-on-bill.

How can this necrous pair connect

while clinging to a spar between two poles?

And how can songless birds

sway to a rapturous rhythm but have

no souls?

               Perhaps

an egg quickens. Spent

the pair opens their serrated spans

to heaven, miming angels. Hours lapse

as fever slakes and vigor streams

to wingtips now resembling hands.

 

 

 


Odysseus Adopts His Aged Aunt

 

 

Hold on, Penelope says, as again Odysseus rises

to leave her behind in the great rooted bed. Get wise.

 

I’m wed to your seagoing lust but not to your aged aunt.

She’s your family, so take her. He’s aghast.

 

How to sail so obscenely burdened? But his aunt is eager:

I can adjust to any situation. Hand me an oar

 

a tiller, a spear. Can’t you suit me up in armor?

Give me a chore: net mender, mast climber

 

flail finder. She’s lame, practically deaf and blind

gap-toothed, purple-skinned, losing her mind.

 

To keep her from harm, Odysseus locks the hag in the hold

but fails to warn his crew of ill-fortune about to unfold:

 

beetles infest the barley, drinking water spoils

sheep and goats bloat on oats and the honey spills

 

riggings fray as tempers boil. Aeolus harries

the ship with winds that shift from doldrums to furies.

 

It’s all their captain’s fault for bringing aboard a dame

for tupping. She's my aunt, he claims. She's ancient!

 

But crewmen whisper she's a white-armed maid. Minutes

before the mutiny, Odysseus opens the hatch, issues

 

the crone a helmet and greaves, a blade to field the blows.

The crew falls back amazed as the old lady shows

 

what she's made of: her challenged spine taller by inches

her clouded eyes colder than memories, she lunges

 

at the shamed and humbled foe. Untouched by counter sting

she's tumbling down, bloodied she is dying.

 

Old Woman Wears Falling Apart Underpants

 

 

old woman wears falling apart underpants

not willing to buy new for nothing    flappy butt in floppy sack

eats food found deep in hard-to-reach cupboards

apricots she peels apart and soaks in warm water from the tap

tongues and sucks their sweetness    spits leather skeletons onto cracked plates

better — believe me — than assisted living    saucily monitored decline

one hears of old persons wandering off    the scare of a parent gone missing

ancients torn apart by wild dogs    better — believe me — than managed care

unbalanced diet made worse by finding huckleberries along the back fence

eating them all    half-ripe before the thieving birds find them    plus the peaches

the neighbor drops by along with two perfectly ripe Better Boys

oh those young boys    for a few hours the underpants sag around the ankles

while she reads her way through decades-old New Yorkers in the upstairs loo

she keeps them all    better — believe me — than paying for new

after a while the stories feel like a part of her    she only needs reminding

for a week she swears off fresh fruit

works her way through the canned goods    tuna baked beans capers

before Lucy takes her to the store    the shopping cart fills with strong flavors

olives bacon three pounds of carrots raw    Lucy won’t let her pay

for as long as the loaf lasts she’ll feast on peanut-butter-and-jelly sandwiches

all the nutrition a body needs between two slices of wholewheat bread

then back to the dried fruit    food that tastes and keeps

old woman prefers to put off sleep    better to reread the old stories

than watch TV    the same kind of people live and laugh and love and fall sick

and die without sponsors or hired minders    she resists the idea

that anyone should try to help her    better — believe me — to hang solo

that’s why it comes as such a surprise to all of us who know her

when her body sickens the rest falters too    she sags easily into our hands

it’s the strange wolf that frightens her    her spirit that crumples first

 

 

 


Passing for Love

 

 

Because he asks me, I visit —

a small apartment after a long ride.

My father's minding a toddler, blue-eyed.

 

A winter sun streams through bare windows.

He disheveled, seems older

— says he's sober.

 

I can't find a place to settle

refuse a cup of coffee. He wants to talk

but I can’t speak.

 

The child, laughing, pushes a boat

along the couch. My father raises his hand

and lets her sail all over him.

 

 

 


Penance

 

 

When guilt comes to you as Custer

bearing his slaughtered troops, his brothers

one by one from circle to circle of hell

 

you must share his burden, reach across

for the scalped head of one, the hacked torso

of a second, the left boot, shattered foot

 

rotting, of a third. Custer will tell you how

the time spent in a circle depends on whether

perversity or blasphemy or greed

 

dogged the soldier before he took an arrow

to his heart. Whether you have denied a beggar

or mocked a god or molested a she-goat

 

devils will run you down, stay and torture you

because you are alive, a superior target

for flaying, searing, drowning in gore.

 

What have you done, you cry, that you

are so consumed by another man’s failing?

O my brother. O fallen man.


Prince Charming

 

 

Your mother

— Queen of Pearls —

 

prefers orchids

to the axles

 

she oils to prevent

your rusted

 

caravan           

from screaming

 

witless profanities

at Planet Earth.

 

 

 


Provincetown Crossing

 

 

Ropes unfurl from cleats, the grumbling screws

rotate the ferry’s hull, propel the bow

to cleave the harbor. Epauletted in blue

the pilot steers the bell to blinker route

toward open sea. Passengers may queue

for fizzy drinks and salty snacks.

Sunday crosswords offer subtle clues

to bundled lovers. Restless travelers tack

from lee to starboard, back from bow to stern.

They’ve wired their heads, implanted buds in ears

each glance surveys the ocean’s tumble and turn

their torsos swivel and slide to rhythms heard.

The crew is dozing: idle hands and mind.

An autopilot drives the ferry blind.

 

 

 


Rosetta Stone

 

 

A liquid blacktop nozzle

transcribes the county road —

winter heaves

vehicular crashes.

 

The artist loops

and glob-stops

mimes and surges.

 

The zigzagged text

resists a supervisor

but the code

will harden.

 

 

 


Salt Marsh Dawning

 

                        — after David Micah Greenberg

 

 

Our window noticed, broke open like news.

There was no news, only night, paling.

 

Beads slingshot up from pines to blueing

double down to glassy bands of steel.

 

The steel grows crimson bolts between grasses

mohawked in green, brown, and golden.

 

Previewed by rays, the crown ascends minutely.

Drawn, the blue capitulates and is morning.

 

Bare day blinds, insists the steel. Our eyes

drift from the sight on a light-strewn breeze

 

reconfigure the patchwork to gulls

skimming water, contrails stitching sky.

 

 

 


Scars

 

                        — from an IM with my brother

 

 

removed back of ear

took one chunk from neck one chunk from arm

used them to reconstruct the ear

 

The cancer excised

after months of crusting and weeping.

 

A woman with breast cancer once bound

her excrescence in cloths

under her dress

until the breast grew to an awful size

or burst.

 

My brother’s ear festered for months

under his HMO.

 

cut on neck is stretched so pesky

and ear’s sore

 

In Milton’s day the king ordered

the ears of Puritans cut off

their faces branded with marks of Judas.

 

I’m considering a beer

 

Will the new ear feel cricks?

The urge to lift heavy objects?

 

A proto-ear fumbles for an opener.

 

 

 


Scotch

 

 

what we no longer drink

aside from thimblefuls

on special occasions

 

what we do with yearnings

for things forsworn

cheese and Coca-Cola

 

what Campbell’s calls a broth

made from beef

and onion, carrots and barley

 

what fills the tape dispenser

mends the tear

sets the spitcurl

 

what we draw in the sand

a matrix of lines, girls

queueing to hop over

 

what flavors the stew

an orange bonnet

Latins call a habañero

 

what we spray on upholstery

to guard against spills

food fights, accidental sex

 

what a knife makes

an opening

to enter or leave by

 

 

 


Second Burial

 

 

I hoe vees.

I seed kale.

I miss her fingerbones.

 

She thumbed holes

out-of-kilter lines

made harlequin maps.

 

No remains —

tufts, nails and teeth —

all ebbed to meal.

 

I loiter at the fruiting rows.

I skirt abandoned beds.

 

 

 


Seeing Kilauea

 

 

Steam geysers from vents.

We stop the car to peer

through chain-link fence

(butts and coins —

tourist-tossed)

 

at gaps in lava, places

where rocks are shifting.

Mary asks if it’s fog

or smoke. The air is thin —

she begins to cough.

 

Red blooms of ‘ohi‘a.

I steer past grays

and blues, sheer caldera

sulfur-white frost.

Pu‘u, I say —

 

cone where lava spouts.

Pahoehoe — slabs of lava

smooth and black

or bulging, pleated

spiral mounds.

 

A‘a — the other lava

acres of reddish scree.

Eruptions that cover, burn

and smother. Nearly home

we pass men working —

 

fencing a field.

Mary says, Look, farmers

they’ve built a fire.

It’s fog, I say

washing out Mauna Kea.

 

 

 


Seen Driving from Chapel Hill to Charleston

 

 

I would not live on Pope Road or in Clinton town

would not work at Cafe Risque

would not take my vacation at a Holiday Inn

or send my children to the Falcon Children's home

but I would stop to neck at mile 69

travel to New York on a Lionel train.

I say yes to the free hot breakfast and coffee 24-hours a day

no to marrying a soldier trained at Fort Bragg.

I'd rather not be tickled pink South of the Border.

24-hour gas sounds painful.

 

 

 


Shade

 

                        — after Paul-Marie Verlaine

 

 

The canopy’s

half-light

wraps our love

in quiet.

 

In madrones

and pines

our fervors

decline.

 

Drop your eyes

hold yourself

let go of

desire.

 

Breeze, come

sweetly

grass, sway

at our feet.

 

We’ll wait

for evening

the nightingale

and singing.

 

 

 


Sol, Sol

 

                        — after Federico García Lorca

 

 

Sun, sun

hot and gold.

 

The orc with the ivories

slow-rides the breakers.

The spray, gassy and whetted

lures him behind the swell.

Surge howlers wink by

on balearic backbones

with cockle-cream ribbons

and high-tossed domes.

Fly Barracuda, transvesta.

The orc skates down the tube.

Three steam trumpets wail

tappets for the knell

with ribbons pearling round oysters

and bells of marbled copper.

Fly Anemone, dauphina.

The orc beams off the curl.

When the fathom glimpses

high noon, with ambered gills

a fish plum sails by, sharing

drift and sea palm from the drench.

Fly Manatee, flamingo.

And the orc bites on air drums.

The orc with the ivories

spins helixing spirals

in the green dice of the spray

snake eyes in his dust.

 

Sun, sun

hot and gold.

 

 

 


Speciation

 

 

happens slowly, Darwin says

when climate or tectonic shifts or viral pandemics

alter the space, kill off those that can’t

and favor those that can survive.

Like the modern urban squirrel

which is unlike the squirrels of my childhood

— Phebe looks sad when she says this —

scampering under the wheels of cars.

Watch squirrels now, hesitating at curbs.

Don’t they seem to listen? Listen, Phebe says

it’s speciation in less than geological time.

No, Darwin says, those squirrels haven’t evolved.

It’s only that the deaf ones died.

 

 

 


Spring Yields

 

 

The heads of day-old titmice are black holes, then white lines

etched on bodies sleeping. All but three

fade from the webcam.

 

The woodpecker mining ants from the pine doesn’t see the squirrel

falling to earth, the blood red at its mouth

the end of its breathing.

 

One by one the rat snake feasts on bluebirds dragged from a box

high on a fence pole. Lumps in its throat

stagger its grounding.

 

The dutiful gleaners — yellow-jackets and emerald blow-flies

maggots fresh hatched — loot the sweet

remains of the season.

 

 

 


Steps

 

 

Beneath a sodden mat of leaves

moss blankets the steps and risers.

I peel it back, uncovering worms

of palest pink. Unused to light

and air, they loop-the-loop, unfurl.

I flip the segments off the edges

shuttle the broom back and forth

to bare stone that sun will dry.

 

At two AM his coughing starts

ebbs to faintest wheezing. Restless

I raise the cotton sheet to catch the

tropical breeze, escape my dream.

My night sweat eases. I bend to

the chill of his hip’s swell, transfer

warmth to his sleepless form, caress

his face and shoulder. Sorry, he says.

 

Don’t worry, I say. I know

the worms are okay and moss regrows.

 

 

 


Storm Warning

 

                     — after Tristan Corbière

 

 

It blows hard, listen, watch out for tornados!

The marsh tide's at flood, hours later riding high.

Wait — rain batters the window

birds in their nests, tilting from side to side.

 

Has the danger passed? Clouds dip and collide.

Oh! the bluebird house, torn from its post!

It blows hard, listen, watch out for tornados!

 

Has the commotion eased? Grackles still won't fly.

Wait — below the grasses, roots showing

reefs of oysters, a gull laughs and dives.

Aren't birds a sign that worrisome times are over?

It blows hard, listen, watch out for tornados!

 

 

 


String Along

 

 

her gowned sense

a masquerade

his fools’s singlet

looped with flags

 

a dreamer she nags

for a queen’s castle

’til his staff batters

and the rafters boom

 

she plies the broom

a judy’s fortune

grab your buttons

punch and run

 

 

 


The Earrings

 

                        — after Eugenio Montale

 

 

In the lamp-blacked glass, not a shadow

of flight remains. (Of your trace, nothing.)

The golden hoops — fragile gleams

the sponge has sent packing.

 

I looked for your rocks, your corals

the strength that steals you.

I flee a goddess without shape.

When I say what I want, you burn me.

 

Outside a chitinous racket

bizarre rites canceling our existence.

Regaining the stage

the night’s gentle medusas.

 

Your signal will flare from the deep.

At your lobes, hands without blood or bone

will fasten the corals.

 

 

 


The First Rabbit

 

 

When Lou’s hand broke

the rabbit’s neck

we studied our hands for lack

of calluses. Mike swung a buck

 

by the legs, said

good-bye before he raised

his mallet. His first swing failed

the next one dazed.

 

I cleavered head from torso

watched the muscles contort

the blood flow.

I peeled the coat

 

lopped the feet

gutted and rinsed the meat.

Later, we soaped away the sweet

reek of recent

 

death — deposits

of flesh and fat, our profit

of memory and sorrow — our habit

since that first rabbit.

 

 

 


The Great Blue Heron

 

 

My wakeup clock is the great blue heron

a strangled squawk from the great blue heron.

 

Flushed from a jack pine, the noise careens

to the nearest dock, it’s the great blue heron.

 

Sunshine fires the pale breast, cerulean

shoulders and hocks on the great blue heron.

 

Most of a morning goes to flare and preen

and air the sockets of the great blue heron.

 

Ascending, the lengthening wings and body open

gravity's lock for the great blue heron.

 

Though ibises travel overhead in dozens

it’s one to a flock with the great blue heron.

 

As moon swallows the marsh, fish are marooned

in shallows chock-full, O great blue heron.

 

Extended toes patently Groucho Marxian

ID the walk of the great blue heron.

 

The head cocks, the bill's a lethal weapon

for prey outstalked by the great blue heron.

 

When dusk falls, a shadow grays spartina

home to its hammock flies the great blue heron.

 

 

 


The Ibis and the Polychaete

 

                        — after Richard Wilbur after Charles Baudelaire

 

 

Feeding at low tide an ibis inhaled

a polychaete — a leggy worm seen dabbing

 

an inconclusive calligraphic trail

in mud exposed by marshtide’s ebb.

 

Yanked from its hiding place, the parapodial

snack extended like a rubber band

 

then snapped and pooled like mercury spilled

from curving bill to estuary ground.

 

Carcass-fed, how white the worm, how blind

how lame — with all those legs no wheels!

 

The immanent bill chased segments through the slime

swallowing, loop by loop, the slippery meal

 

then stilted on, bending now and again to dredge

another hapless squirmer from the sludge.

 

 

 


The Man Who Plays Piano at Nordstrom

 

 

parks his sedan on the shoulder and stands with his back

to the woods. He’s burly, middle-aged, still wearing

his tuxedo — the frayed suspenders dangle, the bow tie’s loose.

His forearm’s draped with folded plastic garbage bags

but he’s complaining — lips in a pooch, cheeks in a sag —

to a comely woman in crepe silk, pearled cardigan

pleated slacks. She bends, sympathetic to his tirade

willing to enter the woods and unfold the black plastic

or drive on and find a motel — whatever he wants

but nothing, nothing suits him.

 

 

 


The Shapes of Flowers

 

                        — after John Keats

 

 

Browsing flats, pushing a cart for company

I fondle stems and dream the shapes of flowers —

triangle, circle, square, or spiral botanies —

without a care for sympathetic colors.

 

So borders clash! Our likes and dislikes change —

bright red exposes blue throughout the mauve

pale pink promotes the red inside the orange

ivory gossips to white, tattles at taupe.

 

Comrades, my garden romps in natural hues

the clumps and rows resemble social schemes —

here a yellow elbows aside chartreuse

there a cinnamon strongarms cream.

 

With shields held high — helmet, spear and torch

chalice, flag and trumpet storm my porch.

 

 

 


Tropical Garden

 

 

Wasn’t Emily plain and lonely

— most days —

didn't she love her bees

 

as I love

the fern frond

— green with a yellow fade —

and blue flowers

on a yellow-berried bush.

 

Rock pile

orchid, croton, ixora

— flesh and colors —

crowd and console me.

 

Wasn’t Eve

roses bushing round her

 

lonely for the snake?

 

 

 


Tucked Behind an Ear Like a Blonde in Corn

 

                        — after Ange Mlinko

 

 

an interdisciplinary dolphin

yodels in a thermos

 

the adult doldrum’s just a phylum

frosted in granulated sugar

the ice by the islet’s speakered with reeds

 

I should burgeon

during thunderstorms

a little stream

lipreading through the moving leaves

the smell of fresh scratches

 

music flows out from the center to the edge

fungible singers of the fainter ochers

even sound gets wet in rain

 

cobblestones fluoresce

to gang together in bouquets

daffodils (half asparagus, half bellwether)

I’ll be the rose you be the pansy

its panache

 

an Archimedean pinkie

gets inside our earaches

a pugilistic insistence on quiet

or Russian

 

skyscrapers that merely sleeve the elevators

the weight of clouds given in elephants

lifted above a pair of tiny scales

 

wild birds don’t glean from the chickens

the cortical wrinkle for hiding in the windowless corridor

 


we don’t want to anthropomorphize the brain

that turns famous down the road

a tooth that nipped

innocents

 

a spongiform innocence wonders

what’s the nucleus of a horse

Boolean chastity

droning

 

we are the sensorium of breeds

gestational how-tos

the ragged hymen of loose-leaf

 

long days hatching vaccines

one translates nonsense into genetics

honeydew shadow

into incubi

 


Urban Owl

 

 

Was it a vole, a convoy of mice

a dropped glove decoyed the barred owl

down from a tree into light?

Its body vamping a mammal’s disguise

except for the wings flung wide, the face

a heart, obsidian eyes

swiveling left and right at grass

smelling of earth — the faded human rag aside —

nothing moving proving nothing

to eat, its prey

safe in snug holes or combing dumpsters

out of sight, the city silent

midnight’s hungry owl, surprised

lifts on air and flies.

 

 

 


Waking

 

                        — after Alice Friman

 

 

Dawn isn’t soon enough

to escape from dreaming.

Compared to action, what’s so sweet about

shagging z’s? Think greyhound — the gate

the premature chomp

                               at the rabbit’s

loin and the superstitious touts.

In the fading night, my feet itch

dreaming is apathy. As for Sleep

necessary, yes, but come one sound

she too is vaulting from the bed.

No fire, no hail, no siren call

but pumped and yearning, ready to gaze

rapt at the eyes of a setting moon.

                                                  One flash

one thunder clap, one hypothetical

melody plays, and there it is — the pure

heart-throb of the new day, that tingle

in the ribs exhaling

the piccolo’s whistle and wild hoarse

ache of the oboe, probing

the mystery it was hollowed out for.

The opening chord.

                               Listen, the day

wakes when it wakes. There’s no delaying

the rollout. Line up on the carpet.

The fibers crackle, and outside — hear?

Night exits slapping tambourines, grace notes

in oyster, a flesh-colored band.

 

 

 


Water Burning

 

 

Come plunge your hands in this cone

of brush -- invasive guava, agave

 

over-grown, hau deflowered

strangling ulu'i. Pluck from the meshes

 

branches and fronds, hazard them deep

beyond ash into ready coals.

 

How the thickety heap disguises

(grassy creep) its yen to burn.

 

How, flame as catalyst, devil's

sharpshooters fire the night alizarin.

 

 

 


What If I Buy You Lunch?

 

                        — after Jorie Graham

 

 

Oh no, she said, paying for a woman

is not what you want to do, She felt how he pulled

away, tried not to. And why

must he say this to her? Who else

 

can know? She wants to say she suffers

loneliness. Hers is like his.

Would she buy love? How can she comfort

what does it mean to be a friend

 

these days? He’s told her about his wife, his daughter

she knows, or she thinks she knows, he loves them.

Yet here they sit, two people at a conference

 

spending the hours between here and there, one meeting

and the next, nowhere

and he’s lonely, might buy a whore.

She’s his friend from work. What are they saying?

 

 

 


What Mike Saw

 

 

The tightly coiled spring

of the rat’s tail — nine inches

tapering to a bent tip, furred

except where death burned it

 

legs ending in pink feet —

dainty, like monkey hands

convex soles with curling toes

the first and fifth sprung

 

like opposing thumbs

from heel to toe the foot as long

as the leg, a bead of urine

leaked from a gray tuft —

 

brown eyes and a pink nose

whiskers in four rows

and light-filled ears like breeze-filled

sails — an old man’s lobes.

 

 

 


Where We Are

 

                        — after Walt Whitman

 

 

is where our digits press screens and keys

                                   careen the cabling

                                   banding the bulge of the earth

 

let me invent for myself a face

                                   a place

                                   an interest or profession

 

am I a member of your circle because

both of us work for self?

 

                                       your self is not my self

yet inevitable we are

 

vulnerable to physical catastrophe

                  internal                   or                  external

 

should fiber optics welding state to state blind us

should our galaxy collide with another

 

         try not

to be as you might

 

                          life style, education, breeding

                        you of my galaxy and I of yours

 

wherein you may not have bathed for a month

I am merely two days into not bathing

 

                                                          compost of billions

                                                             tell me of your dirt

 


mine spots a gray cotton T-shirt (small hole in the left armpit)

                                        non-binding

 

                                                 over

                             pastel cotton shorts

worn from wearing & washing

 

            material failures

                                       at the folded edges

                                 the float of the sight of things

 

age is less noticeable in pixels

                                               O let us take our hands . . .

 

 

 


Whidbey Island Spoils

 

 

1

 

A crab has cracked, belly from back

its shell missing a wedge

lifted by wrack.

 

 

2

 

Some child’s forgotten her Kermit

sifter clotted with sand

taken her bucket.

 

 

3

 

All gauze and ommateum, flies

guzzle at a Douglas fir’s

tumultuous capsize.

 

 

4

 

A Golden Crackling sparkler grazes

a Pepsi-Cola can, a

flowerpot crazes.

 

 

5

 

Kelp macrames sticks and stones

pigeon guillemots scour

a salmon’s bones.

 

 

 


Willem de Kooning, No Title, 1988

 

 

Though not an ear

the space edged with blue

quickens a membrane listening.

 

An ear doesn’t close its eye.

Whites and tomato flashes

enter unimpeded.

 

Threads of volume

nursed from the jigsaw knob

of the world tuning.

 

Through M-shaped folds

a cauliflower ear

trades suitable phrases.

 

The white ground

reminds us of not hearing.

 

 

 

 

Sixty Some

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